{"id":8713,"date":"2021-02-21T22:56:01","date_gmt":"2021-02-21T22:56:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/?p=8713"},"modified":"2021-05-29T15:42:23","modified_gmt":"2021-05-29T15:42:23","slug":"f-ck-fifty-one","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/f-ck-fifty-one\/","title":{"rendered":"F-ck Fifty-one"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This morning, to celebrate my birthday and the fact that I\u2019m probably in the best shape of my life since I was 17, I went cross-country skiing alone at a local state park (James Baird). Anyone who knows me or has followed my blog for a while knows there\u2019s nothing unusual about this. Indeed, it\u2019s axiomatic: If there\u2019s snow on the ground within 100 miles of where Chris Orcutt lives, chances are he\u2019s out there cross-country skiing on it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Anyway, while I was skiing this morning, climbing up and gliding down the rolling park hills, skiing off-trail far away from the machine-made path, my 76-year-old father, Al, happened to show up at the park as well.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Al\u2019s been skiing for 25 or 30 years and was out there this morning for an hour of exercise. I spotted him a quarter-mile away or so. He was heading for a fork in the trail, so I picked up the pace to cut him off. Suddenly I saw him stop in the distance and had no idea why. He was watching me. I raced the rest of the distance, running up the snow-covered hills with a brisk herringbone step, and zipping down the other side. When I caught up to him he gave a start.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"538\" height=\"717\" src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8718\" srcset=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090.jpg 538w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090-500x666.jpg 500w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090-430x573.jpg 430w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210211_153712090-300x400.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 538px) 100vw, 538px\" \/><figcaption>My 76-year-old father, Big Al, still skiing strong.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cWhat\u2019s wrong, Dad?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cOh, Chris,\u201d he said in his inimitable Downeast Maine accent, \u201cthat\u2019s you! I didn\u2019t even recognize you! I thought you were a professional Nordic skier out there, like some of the guys I\u2019ve seen up at Lake Placid.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cThanks, Dad,\u201d I said. \u201cThat might be the nicest compliment you\u2019ve ever given me.\u201d (Although he\u2019s been equally complimentary of my novels as well.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cI mean it,\u201d he said. \u201cYou\u2019re doing <em>everything<\/em> right out there, and so smoothly\u2014gliding along like you were born on these things.\u201d He picked up one foot with the ski attached.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">We skied for an hour together, as we have just about every day this season while there\u2019s been snow on the ground, and then we went our separate ways. We\u2019ll probably meet up again tomorrow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"571\" height=\"761\" src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8732\" srcset=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2.jpg 571w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2-500x666.jpg 500w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2-430x573.jpg 430w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20201222_122831698_BURST001-2-300x400.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 571px) 100vw, 571px\" \/><figcaption>As a rule, I don&#8217;t smile very much. The fact that I&#8217;m smiling in this photo tells you how much I love X-C skiing.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Here\u2019s the thing: I\u2019ve been cross-country skiing for about 22 years. This year, however, everything has clicked and I\u2019ve gone to a new level in my skills. After hundreds and hundreds (probably thousands of hours) over the past 22 years, all of the elements have come together: the practice on the trail (including skiing through blizzards); studying books on the subject and watching videos on it; my year-round strength training; the yoga and TB12 flexibility\/pliability work I\u2019ve been doing for the past 5 years or so; my sobriety; my mental maturity and fortitude; and the self-direction and self-discipline I\u2019ve developed from 30 years as a professional writer\u2014all of these disparate elements have coalesced to take my cross-country ski skills to a new level.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-video\"><video height=\"1920\" style=\"aspect-ratio: 1080 \/ 1920;\" width=\"1080\" controls src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/VID_20201222_123049057.mp4\"><\/video><figcaption>A short video of me skiing, taken back in December 2020.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">As I was driving home from the park, my arms and legs burning from having just skied 7 or 8 miles in two hours in 20-degree weather, I reflected on the fact that shortly after midnight today I turned 51 years old. I glanced at myself in the rear-view mirror\u2014my ruddy cheeks, the sweat running down my head\u2014and said out loud, \u201cYou know what, Chris? Fuck fifty-one.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Whereas some people might reach this age and feel that it\u2019s all downhill from here, I don\u2019t feel that way at all. In fact, I have a sense that my 50s and 60s are going to be the greatest decades of my life\u2014a magical time when my knowledge, wisdom, experience, confidence, mental acuity, work ethic, self-discipline, self-direction and excellent physical condition are all going to come together: that magical point on the graph where the lines measuring the progress of these various data points all intersect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-soliloquy-soliloquywp\">[soliloquy id=&#8217;8740&#8242; type=&#8217;gutenberg&#8217;]<\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">About three years ago, I took my best friend, Jason Scott, golfing with me. Jason isn\u2019t a golfer and was never an athlete, but as a master in his own right (in the realms of computers, filmmaking, the internet, and <a href=\"https:\/\/textfiles.libsyn.com\/\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/textfiles.libsyn.com\/\">now even <em>podcasts<\/em>, the bastard<\/a>) he appreciates any endeavor done well. I should mention that, in addition to playing golf and writing my behemoth epic novel that summer, I was working out for two hours a day and swimming a mile three times a week.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"974\" src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-1024x974.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8311\" srcset=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-1024x974.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-300x285.jpg 300w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-768x730.jpg 768w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-904x860.jpg 904w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-500x476.jpg 500w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948-430x409.jpg 430w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/10\/20180624_142948.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><figcaption>Orcutt, July 2018&#8211;the summer of the legendary golf drive.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>&#8211;<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">At the 5<sup>th<\/sup> hole of the course we were on, I stepped up to the tee and drilled\u2014I mean fuck-ing <em>drilled<\/em>\u2014an arrow-straight 270-yard drive that sailed over the cart path, bounced twice and landed on the green. I said to Jason, \u201cI\u2019m sorry, Jay, but I have to brag for a moment. I don\u2019t think you don\u2019t realize this, because you\u2019ve never been a golfer or an athlete, but what I just did was a professional-caliber golf shot. I\u2019m talking Tiger Woods or Jack Nicklaus-level. That was the best shot I\u2019ve ever made.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"768\" src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-7258\" srcset=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-904x678.jpg 904w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-500x375.jpg 500w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/11\/DSCN9798-430x323.jpg 430w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He was happy for me and said it was really something to see, but then he added, \u201cIt\u2019s good that you\u2019re out here now doing this stuff because we\u2019re both going to be old men soon.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cWhat?!\u201d I stopped the cart and adjusted my sunglasses for dramatic effect. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">(I should note here that my friend and I have known each other for 40 years and have always admired and respected each other, so I knew I could talk to him as I did, and I also knew that he would know I was just being Chris Orcutt emphatic.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I said, \u201cSpeak for yourself, dude. I\u2019m never getting old. I\u2019m never letting an old person in. That shit with doctors\u2019 offices and medication and <em>retirement<\/em> and aches and pains and stiffness and complaining. Fuck that shit. That\u2019s never going to be me. NEVER. When that Old Man starts a-knockin\u2019, I\u2019m gonna open the door and kick him in the balls.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This made my friend laugh, relieved the tension of the moment, and we enjoyed the rest of the day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"768\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-768x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8632\" srcset=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-768x1024.jpg 768w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-500x667.jpg 500w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-430x573.jpg 430w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1-300x400.jpg 300w, https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/12\/IMG_20200520_150809084_HDR_2-1.jpg 864w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><figcaption>One way Father Time has caught up with me: I now need reading glasses.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Today, during my ride home after skiing, I thought about some recent profiles Jason did of me on his podcast, and <a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/worldclassperformer.com\/short-life-lessons-from-chris-orcutt\/\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/worldclassperformer.com\/short-life-lessons-from-chris-orcutt\/\" target=\"_blank\">an interview I gave last week to WorldClassPerformer.com<\/a>. The website interview was a total surprise to me because I\u2019d never heard of the website, and I didn\u2019t solicit the attention in any way. I still have no idea how they\u2019d heard of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-audio\"><audio controls src=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/monksherpa.mp3\"><\/audio><figcaption>&#8220;The Monk and the Sherpa&#8221;: A Podcast by Jason about Me (the Monk) and Him (the Sherpa).<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\">&#8211;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Anyway, I thought about this recent, unsolicited publicity, and how all the cylinders are firing perfectly in my life right now: my writing, my mental acuity, my physical fitness, my nutrition (well\u2026<a rel=\"noreferrer noopener\" href=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210221_121203470.jpg\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/orcutt.net\/weblog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/IMG_20210221_121203470.jpg\" target=\"_blank\">after the chocolate cake-cups Alexas made me today<\/a>, this area isn\u2019t perfect anymore) and my sobriety. And I had what was perhaps a post-exercise endorphin high-induced moment of clarity with a sudden insight. (The Japanese call this state <em>satori<\/em>.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">In that brief, brief moment, the clouds parted in my mind and I caught a clear glimpse of my future. I realized that I was never meant to be a <em>wunderkind<\/em>, an <em>enfant terrible<\/em>, a child prodigy; rather, I am the quintessential (and much rarer) <a href=\"https:\/\/www.newyorker.com\/magazine\/2008\/10\/20\/late-bloomers-malcolm-gladwell\" data-type=\"URL\" data-id=\"https:\/\/www.newyorker.com\/magazine\/2008\/10\/20\/late-bloomers-malcolm-gladwell\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\"><em>late bloomer<\/em><\/a>, and my best years are truly ahead of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fuck fifty-one. It\u2019s nothing but a number. And when that old man comes a-knockin\u2019, I\u2019m still going to kick him in the balls.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hard.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This morning, to celebrate my birthday and the fact that I\u2019m probably in the best shape of my life since I was 17, I went cross-country skiing alone at a local state park (James Baird). Anyone who knows me or has followed my blog for a while knows there\u2019s nothing unusual about this. 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